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Monday, November 12, 2007

Mon, 12 Nov 2007 20:49:29 GMT

I finally feel like writing, but it's hard for the right words to come.

It's been a while since my last serious blog about anything, but I feel like it's time for me to talk about a few things. My future, life, friends, etc.

Those in the know will be glad to hear that it'll all be over (or start?) in the next month. Those not in the know, you're that way for a reason. No offense to you, but I just don't feel comfortable letting everyone know about what is going on in my life right now.

There's a list of people in my head that I've disappointed over the last six months. I could list names, but I don't really feel like it. To those people, you will never know the depths of my lament and sorrow. Certain actions I have performed are nothing short of appalling and embarrassing, and the consequences of those actions will follow me for the rest of my life.

I'm not going to lie, I've contemplated a lot of extremely stupid or regrettable things, but you'll all be pleased to know that logic overrides my stupidity on those issues. If only logic would have been applicable some months ago. Then I wouldn't be in this situation.

I've cried myself to sleep quite a few nights lately. I've prepared for what's to come for a long time, but it still all seems like it's coming too fast. It's almost like a final exam in high school. You know exactly WHEN it is, but even the night before, you're stressing out because you still think you need more time. I know I need no more time, but it still feels like I do.

I don't want to have to look back at memories of people and miss them. I've already done that with too many of you. Through the least two years, I've been through the worst and best times of my life. I just want to be able to go home and rest somehow. I know it won't happen, but I can always hope.

The first round of goodbyes started tonight. Those who I won't see ever again. Those who will go on to do great things, will any of them truly remember me? Possibly in passing moments, or in a joking reference about a pertinent topic, but have I really made a good enough impact on anyone's life to have them truly remember me? I'd like to think that I have in a few cases, but only time will tell in that case.

I would like everyone's addresses. I want to write you, if I can.

Sorry for being so vague, but my thoughts are well-blended brain matter right now. I may try to add more later, but who knows.

Love goes out to those who truly deserve it. You know who you are. Respect to all who read these words.

- PFC Giles, Wayne F
BBN Operator
CCP, 509th Signal Battalion
Vicenza, Italy

Monday, November 05, 2007

Mon, 05 Nov 2007 19:59:38 GMT

To follow up the previous post:

No. No one can.

Sunday, October 28, 2007

Sun, 28 Oct 2007 22:36:46 GMT

Can ANYONE stop the Patriots?

Monday, October 15, 2007

Mon, 15 Oct 2007 12:52:14 GMT

When I said I'd be back in three weeks, I meant that I'd be back online in three weeks. Although I am technically four days early.

Pictures of my "trip" will be posted soon. I'm back in Italy on Friday, so probably this weekend sometime depending on what the return schedule looks like. Inventories and recovery take precedence over little things like sleep and the internet.

I've had a lot of fun down here, lemme give you a taste: Irish whiskey, drunken CSMs, drunken company AND battalion commanders, football bets, crossword puzzles, erotic massage parlors, cigars, Budweiser Super Strong, Irish mixed meat dinner, blond hair, dogs, angry cat, Grope Lane, powerbomb through a board, and Michelle Kwan.

Saturday, September 29, 2007

Sat, 29 Sep 2007 00:15:34 GMT

I'll be back in a few weeks. Don't forget to feed the cat.

Saturday, September 22, 2007

Sat, 22 Sep 2007 03:38:48 GMT

Summary of my night:

Drink at Art Cafe
Drink at Crazy Bowl
Watch dumb drunk Italian eat shit into a light pole and total her car
Take my roommate to the hospital because of the last one
Come home to people still up drinking at 0630

Everyone's okay though, so all is well. I'm sleepy.

Monday, September 17, 2007

Mon, 17 Sep 2007 20:04:22 GMT

And Shepherds we shall be
For thee, my Lord, for thee.
Power hath descended forth from Thy hand
That our feet may swiftly carry out Thy commands.
So we shall flow a river forth to Thee
And teeming with souls shall it ever be.
In Nomine Patris,
Et Filii,
Spiritus Sancti.

Tuesday, September 11, 2007

Tue, 11 Sep 2007 19:22:48 GMT

6 years later, a look back at 9/11.

Didn't particularly give a damn then, still don't give a damn now.

Seriously, it was shitty. It sucked for a lot of people. But damn it, get the fuck over it already. It's getting real boring to not be able to go ANYWHERE or talk to ANYONE without something involving 9/11 coming up. Stop babbling incessantly about it everywhere, please.

I had a 27 hour shift the other day, I'm still pretty tired too.

Friday, August 17, 2007

Fri, 17 Aug 2007 19:29:23 GMT

I am now the proud parent of a functioning internet connection yet again. Feel free to contact me in any of these ways:

http://www.xanga.com/devilon
http://www.livejournal.com/devilon
http://www.myspace.com/devilon
http://www.facebook.com (Username: devilon@gmail.com)
Email: devilon@gmail.com
Email: wayne.f.giles@us.army.mil

http://www.bemanistyle.com
http://www.ddrkc.com
http://www.kingdomofloathing.com
http://www.otori.org

Love all around.

Wednesday, August 08, 2007

Wed, 08 Aug 2007 15:12:24 GMT

The short version: I'm in trouble.

The part I can tell: Positive drug test when I came back.

More details to follow as they are declassified and when I find time.